Surviving Pancreatic Cancer for 3 years!
Each year I have an “I’m Still Standing” Party to mark my anniversary. This is my third year! Unbelievable to me. As with everything this year, COVID has altered the plan. There cannot be an in-person party.
Instead, I want an Imaginary I’m Still Standing Anniversary Party.
- Not a virtual party!
- Not a drive-by party!
- A real imagined party.
With my imagined party I can invite everyone I know and there will still be room in my house. I can invite all the family members and friends who live too far away to join in an actual party and we can all imagine them being there. My party has always been a thank you to all the people who have gone out of their way to support me in my quest to live, and now I can thank even more people. There are those in my far-away “fan club” who send cards, text, and call to check in to make sure I’m okay. There are those people who have done quiet, secret acts of kindness, like my neighbor who decorated her backyard for me to enjoy from my kitchen window. I’ve even made new friends this past year. Pastor Tim’s Mom, (we inherited my dog Riley from Tim after his sudden death) Ida, is almost 90 and lives in Florida. She has called every month to check in; it would be wonderful for her to join in the party.
With my imagined party, I can place an imaginary order of all the best food in town and everyone can imagine eating all their favorite foods. No one has to bring anything. Everyone can drink champagne and not worry about drinking in the afternoon. (I actually never felt bad about an afternoon glass of wine, but I believe I read somewhere that people worry about that!). Since I’ve had my new stent placed in my duodenum (now there’s a new body part to learn!), I have been on a strict diet of eating– no nuts, no fresh veggies or fruits, no meats unless they are “fork-tender”, low fat, nothing fried, no Christmas treats. In other words, if it’s good– I can’t eat it! My dog has an extremely allergic response to food and her specialized diet of prescription dog food, rice, and baby-food chicken that I created is starting to look pretty good to me. At my party, I will eat everything!
With my imagined party, no one is at risk to catch COVID. No masks needed. No social distancing. Everyone I know is rather exhausted from the COVID stress. There will be no judging of the decisions other people make– everyone will just be safe. At my party, the exhaustion will disappear and everyone will feel well. I never know from one moment to the next how I will feel. In the past I was the Planning Queen and now plans actually make me nervous because I can feel well one minute and miserable the next. With all the musicians who have struggled with a fentanyl addiction, I am quite surprised I don’t break into song and dance on occasion. At my imagined party we will all be dancing and singing!
You are all invited to my Imaginary I’m Still Standing 3rd Anniversary Party.
- Date: January 1, 2021
- Time: Whenever you can join us
- RSVP – Not necessary, because I can just imagine that you are here!